Well, i hurt myself today. I don't know if someone cares, but i want to write to make it easier. Sorry about my english.
I hurt myself because i'm very sad and desperate. I'm lonely everyday and nobody seems to notice that i'm broken and hurt. I cut myself and burned my skin with cigarettes, i'm not proud of what i've done, but i couldn't control my anger and the pain inside me.
I don't have many friends here, my family don't know what happens to me. She doesn't likes me and my heart is broken. The worst thing is that i'm too depressed to do anything about it, i can't even think straight and i can't see a soluction. I change the medications, go out sometimes to take a breath, then nothing happens. I go back home and try to sleep. Always tired, always trying to cry.
Nobody listens to me, looks like i'm invisible. I don't want to die, i just want to find a reason to live. I want to live a normal life. Make friends, find a girlfriend, do anything everybody does. But it think about killing myself sometimes. I can't avoid this evil thoughts.
I want to be someone i can't be, have something i can never have. It's so sad.
If only i could be someone special to anyone... if only i could be a better person... But i can't, i'm not strong enough to deal that i'm always going to be different, ugly and weird.
I wish i was beautiful, interesting and happy, but i'm not. that's it.
I'm sorry about that, but it's what i feel... Was very hard for me to write this text... I need some help to help myself.
I don't know if someone cares, if you do, let me know...
I'm desperate and hopeless...
I hurt myself because i'm very sad and desperate. I'm lonely everyday and nobody seems to notice that i'm broken and hurt. I cut myself and burned my skin with cigarettes, i'm not proud of what i've done, but i couldn't control my anger and the pain inside me.
I don't have many friends here, my family don't know what happens to me. She doesn't likes me and my heart is broken. The worst thing is that i'm too depressed to do anything about it, i can't even think straight and i can't see a soluction. I change the medications, go out sometimes to take a breath, then nothing happens. I go back home and try to sleep. Always tired, always trying to cry.
Nobody listens to me, looks like i'm invisible. I don't want to die, i just want to find a reason to live. I want to live a normal life. Make friends, find a girlfriend, do anything everybody does. But it think about killing myself sometimes. I can't avoid this evil thoughts.
I want to be someone i can't be, have something i can never have. It's so sad.
If only i could be someone special to anyone... if only i could be a better person... But i can't, i'm not strong enough to deal that i'm always going to be different, ugly and weird.
I wish i was beautiful, interesting and happy, but i'm not. that's it.
I'm sorry about that, but it's what i feel... Was very hard for me to write this text... I need some help to help myself.
I don't know if someone cares, if you do, let me know...
I'm desperate and hopeless...
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